Dreams to make them come true is a lot of hard work!

It was a long exhausting week! When you dream of dreams and things that you want to do to become the person you want to be and do the things that you dream of... it comes with its own price... in the dream its glamorous and sparkly... in reality its working late... sleepless nights... early mornings.. and continuous long long days that seems it will never end! And the worst part of it all it is many many obstacles along the way... that makes it sometimes so hard to remember why you are doing all this in the first place... determination windels slowly and you body and mind starts wondering why the hell are you doing this to me... and you almost start to think you want to give up... then you have one very small breakthrough and force yourself to see the big picture or the light at the end of the road what it might look like and hope and a bet energy start to build in you again... or you just have to keep reminding your self thats it worth it...  I hope its worth it...

My first "Reminder List" aka To Do List for this year...

Well I bite the bullet and did my first "Reminder List For Paper Work" which actually another phrase for a "To Do List" but thats what the App on my MacBook calls it and I'm fine with that. fallen back on my wake up schedule today I woke up a half hour late started my Day at 8am instead of 7:30am which eventually I wanted to build it up gradually to start my weekdays at 7:00am... I am dreading today its going to be a long long day... It will start at 10 am to literally maybe till 11 pm... Agghhh but there is a lot to do and a lot to decide.. so I better get going.. <3 and peace to all!

I am not a "To Do:" list kind of gal!

I think this has been my problem in my life is a bet chaotic in the way I conduct things. Most of my on time friends have to do lists and almost less than half tell me that they stick to it. It keeps them on track. I always say to my self that I have that "to do list" in my head but its not true, I end of wasting a lot of time because I delay things to be done to the last minute and I sit worrying about not doing the things that I ams suppose to do and then when I absolutely HAVE TO I get stressed out! I woke up yesterday and I am determined to live a less stressful life by making my time more efficient so I am not always stressing out that I am falling behind. Its giving headaches and I think its raising my blood pressure because I am starting to get buzzing in my ears every time I get upset. Its all my doing... I just have to find a way to be more efficient. So starting this week is cut down on distractions and acknowledging that I am not a multi tasked kind of person.. To Do list to improve the way I do my work: 1- Wake up 2 hours early daily during weekdays. If I wake up 2 hours before I actually have to to get ready to go to work will give me enough time to do things before every body wakes up and start distracting me from doing some of much delayed work. 2nd day now and I am already a tiny bet happier... got some things done.. will try to finish the week and see how many days I actually did wake up at 7:30am. <3 and Peace to all!

This is where it all started :)

Hello my dear dear Blog, Sorry to have been away for so long. I never abandoned you but you have set the first stones to what good things has came after and made me too busy to come here and write... You will always be dear to me and I know that you will always be there for me here like a good ole dear friend with welcoming arms and a big heart... happy that I have grown and left the nest but will always come home back to you when I need to clear my head from all the noise and craziness of what has become of the social media era.. It always amazes me of how much I learned here and the paths that you my simple personal dear blog has taken me... But I love every minute of it and every accomplishment... remember when people jokes about why am I waisting my time here, and who would read this... many read this and from it I learned blogging and from blogging I landed a part time job that not just opened doors but it made some of my dreams actually come true... the blogs that came after actually became my resume online.. So thank you Blog... Thank you for all that you had given me... you kept me sane at times that were tough and kept me going in between jobs sitting at home and were depressed, those times that it was difficult to get out of bed... every day of those dark days you gave me a purpose and got me out of bed all along teaching me giving me a skill.. and later those teachings brought me opportunities that made my life better... I love you! XOXO Lilliy